Day in September

Today's outfit: 

Jacket ONLY

Scarf Seppälä

Bag Sunny's

Shoes UGG (fakes, eventhougth you can't see them clearly)

It's been a while again and I wanted so much to post something. 

So I took my parents camera today because my own is still in fixing. 

I'm crying to these pictures! I want my own camera back so badly! :D

I went to café with Janina today, she had a free day too.

Hanna came only visit me today, we ate pizza and talked. I was going to take pictures too but because we were inside, lighting was really bad and that camera just sucks. 

 She has same jacket than I have, color is only different. 

I like that color too, but black suits me better. That color looks really good on Janina. 

Coffee and muffin, and quality of picture TERRIBLE! 

I'm going to University Hospital of Kuopio at Monday to see my doctor. 

For the last time I hope. They're gonna take CT pictures of my brains and check that everything is normal now. Scar looks like scar too. 

I also need to permission to color my hair. Actually it's allowed after 6 months after surgery, but hell no I'm gonna wait that long! My hair looks terrible. 

So I'm gonna color my hair next Tuesday, and yes, It's farewell to my blond hair but you will see later. 

And I don't think that I have anything else now. 

Bye~

Autumn days

Greetings from school pench. 

It's only 2 days to Swedish exam and I've stopped taking stress of it. 

But exams won't end because Exam-week number 1 is starting next week. 

So busy busy busy busy but in the end not that busy .

I'm waiting our autumn vacation week really much because I'm travelling to Germany (-again!) 

This time it's school's student exchange-project.

One of them stays at my place and I go to his place in Pritzwalk, Germany. 

I hope it's gonna be nice week and of course I'm gonna keep my camera with me. 

Yeah, talking about my camera! 

I'TS BROKEN, a little bit.

Only light doesn't work, so pictures came out blurry. I need to fix that before leaving to Germany.

I'm also going to visit University Hospital of Kuopio in two weeks. It's already been around 3 months? 

Time have passed so quickly, well that is only good thing.

I hope they will stop my medicines, finally and take new MRI's of my brains. 

I've recovered quite well, so I really don't want anything problems anymore.

I don't know how my head will react in Airplane because of the pressure over than 10km high.

Mom said something about pressure when plane is landing...well.. It's not like I haven't felt any pain lately. It's not a problem. 

I really hope that I will visit there last time! That isn't place where I want to go again.

Sain myös haasteen Katalta, kiitos! :) 

Pyrin tekemään sen tässä lähiaikoina. 

And for making boring autumn evenings better,

Super Junior published A-CHA! Enjoy~~! 

Plugga svenska? I think I need a helmet.

I visited Hanna's at wendnesday and now it's already saturday. 

I've been lazy updater. Well maybe because I actually don't have anything special to say. 

Yeah, I had a feeling that even trying to study together, we can't focus on swedish.

In the end, we ended up drinking coffee and talking! :D 

That actually wasn't surprise but atleast we talked all things clear. 

I had fun day at Hanna's. 

And as you can see, that book isn't swedish book.

We started talking about "what to do after school" - topic. 

Sad to say but summer is really starting to end. Tomorrow is FINAL vacation day. 

This summer ended too soon and because of my sickness I really hadn't so much time to enjoy and have fun. 

Still I'm glad that I went to surgery because those attacks haven't bothered me after surgery, so 5 weeks!!!! 

It feels great and my head is getting better too. 

I can already hide that ugly scar half still wound with my hair.

So I'm starting to be ok.

Today I'm actually going to buy HELMET.

I need still to use bike going to school in next weeks because my parents are working and without bike, I will be late every morning. 

I'm not actually morning person. 

I don't want to risk my head, so I need to buy helmet. 

I haven't used bike helmet since I was hmm..I can't even remember. 

But I don't want to be stupid and get myself back in the Hospital.

 K-pop fans!
Check out my youtube channel!
Finnish lyrics to Super Junior's Mr.Simple! 

"I remember" 
I like this song a lot !!!!  

♡Gettin' better day by day and 3 weeks from the surgery.

I went to visit Janina's house yesterday.

It was so nice to finally talk to somebody, well of course I've been talking in phone too 

but it was nice to see too. 

 Later we wen't for a little walk.. well for me it felt so long.

And also buy some candies. 

Actually we met other friend at the supermarket.

We had a talk about going to bar some weekend, yeah, for a COKE ( in my situation)

So maybe I would be strong enough to go have fun time with my friends.

Can you see? It's not that bad anymore, only a little bit ugly.

My wound is going to be scar soon and today it's exactly 3 weeks from the surgery.

It's healing very well but it's little bit painful.

Every night because while I'm sleeping, I have to stay in one position and for a sleeper like me, it's impossible.

So waking up for a pain, it's been normal around 2 weeks now. 

After my wound is a scar I don't have to use bandage anymore.

I have to use bandage because there is still possibility that my wound would go septic. 

Bandage keeps bacteries away, at least most of them.

I hope that my would be already a scar when school starts because I really don't  like to walk with bandage in my head.

Today I actually went to hairsalon, 

I got my bangs back! 

for a ugly person like me, there is no use to use make-up.

I can go with the excuse that I'm sick.

There is only 3 weeks vacation left

mutta nyt takaisin ruotsin kirjan ihmeelliseen maailmaan what is in english

back to study swedish with a little bit different words.

Tired of being sick

 

It's been 1 week since I came home from Hospital. 

I've been feeling well and I start to get tired of this already.

I'm not going to anywhere, I'm not doing anything.

Expect that I went to see doctor at thursday and yesterday.

Now all stitches are off but the wound isn't good at all.

Last stitch was deeply to in my skin.

First there was 3 nurses, all trying to get that off without hurting me, then they asked doctor to come andt ake that off.

He put anesthesia needle and it took around 5 minutes to get the last stitch off.

So all in all, there was 4 stitches and it took 40 minutes. 

Now my wound is swollen and really painful.

But hey, let's think postive way, stitches are off!

Lately I haven't been in a mood for doing anything. 

I've been a little bit depressed.

I don't think how long I will take this anymore, I need to go somewhere.

Since I'm not so sick anymore.

But it's not easy to try start normal life again because I know that I can't do all things like I did before surgery.

I'm going to be a total absolutist for next 3 months, all thanks to my medicines.

Well, it's not a big deal because I don't drink so much anyway.

But maybe I'll survive.

I was already planning to go Joensuu in this week.

I want to see Sophie's new puppy Rambo<3

and maybe some shopping would make my mood better,, ;) 

Today my parents tried to make my mood better,

My favourite grill food and ice cream. 

So yummy~~ ^^

But I feel bad about eating just because Im not feeling good.

I'll get fat.. and thats what I don't want.

 

I was playing with shy boy today and he is actually quite good model for me. 

This hunting-picture is best of what I took! :D

I really would like to do something else than sleep, play with computer, watch movies and eat.

Feeling better

I'm doing so much better already. 

I got 17 out of 21 stitchs off today and the wound haven't got septic at all. 

Other 4 are still left waiting for sunday. They were still too deep to take off.

So all these days I haven't certainly do anything interesting.

Regardelss of that I went to see Potter yesterday.

It was nice.

So I've been laying down with my laptop, speaking on the phone, eaten something and so on...

Nothing special. 

Oh!

Yesterday I was strong enough to cook food. 

So I was playing masterchef again..kekekekeke...

It turned out pretty well... So it seems that I'm not so bad cook after all ;)

I'll post about it later...

Also!

Gayoung's latter came last week, Mom brought it to Hospital. 

She gave me test paper to solve!! 

But first I gotta TRANSLATE THIS!!

I think it's going to take A LOT OF TIME! :) 

So thanks Gayoung, I'll try this! ;D

Don't want to sleep anymore

 

My oufit from yesterday

( I was so tired so I didn't even think about using make-up) 

I still look sick :S 

I really love that shirt, I knew already when I saw it that I have to buy it.

Those sandals are my one of my favourite shoes too. They are really comfortable for walking.

Shirt Cawaii

Shorts H&M 

Bag Sunny's

Sandals Ecco

 

 I really don't like that I have to hide my head still for a little while.

I'll get rid of sitches this thursday, after that I can hide the scar with my hair.

Yesterday I went first time "out" after my surgery and in the evening I was thinking with a huge headache, was that so good choice after all.

I went to Supermarket with Hanna, because I wanted to walk a little bit and in the evening I went to buy my Harry Potter-ticket with Mom.

Yes, I feel like a child again because there always have to be somebody with me.

I still cannot go alone.

Oh!

I still haven't introduced my new hat from H&M

I got it almost month ago.

It's a little bit big to my head, and without my hair extensions it looks stupid.

So I've been using it when I have my hair extensions on.

Photo from Sunday before me going to Hospital. 

I spent that day with Noora.

We were just driving and talking+ eating :D

Susa, Janita and Janina came to visit me at sunday. 

It was actually really nice to see them. 

Going to Kino doesn't sound like it's a big thing

but right now for me it is.

From hospital they said to me that I can't burden myself in anyway, yesterday I did and I saw it later.

I was feeling so awful. 

I need to rest this day so I'm in a good condition tomorrow.

I survived!

 

 it looks bad, but it isn't actually so painful :D 

Finally I'm home! 

I'm glad to say that surgery went perfectly and surgeon operated all of malformation tumor off. 

Evetything went so well!

I'm glad!

But the recovery is just in the beginning.

I got home today, and it feels so good to be home finally.

6 days in the hospital were long! 

Jeeps, eli kotona ollaan! 

Leikkaus onnistu täydellisesti ja se verisuoniepämuodostuma kasvain möllykkä saatiin poistettua kokonaan. Kotiin pääsin onneks jo eilen, vaikka ensin oli et olisin ollu sairaalassa maanantaihin asti, mutta onneks pääsin jo nyt. 

Ei siellä ois kukaa enää jaksanu vaa olla. 

Oli vaa niin ihana päästä kotiin! ^^ 

First day, so much studies and MRI-pictures, blood tests...

It was really tiring day because I was so scared about next day. 

Maanantaina tehtii kauheesti kaikkia kokeita ja mm. 8-putkioa verta, magneetti kuvia ja sit joku ihmeellinen aivosähkökäyrä ja hermorata tutkimus.

Se ei ollu kauheen kivaa, ja tossa hermoratatutkimuksessa annettiin siis pieniä sähköiskuja aivoihin ja sit kateltiin tietokoneelta miten lihakset ja hermosto reagoi siihen.

Se sattu. Se tutkimus kesti noin tunnin, mut hei sain kattoo frendejä samaa aikaa.

Tosin jäi frendit vähän vähemmälle aina välillä.

My surgery was last tuesday and it lasted less than 3 hours because everything went so well. 

About surgery I only remember doctor's sleeping needels and oxygen mask. 

next thing I remember is when I woke up from the Intensive  Care Unit ( ICU). 

There was so much doctors but I remember that surgeon were there too, he said to me that it went really well and he even didn't have to cut much hair off.

I was like: "really good"

then back to sleep.

They were worried about my condition because there was supposed to be a little paralysis in my left side of face, oh well

there was. 

But it went off pretty quickly.

I don't remember pain, maybe because I got so much strong painkillers...

pain started to come later after I was really woken up.

But drugs were good :) So I really wasn't so much in pain.

Leikkaus tehtiin sit tiistai aamuna aikaseen ja se kesti alle 3 tuntia valmisteluineen.
 Esilääkkeen ansiosta en ees pelänny leikkaus-saliin menoa.

Leikkaus-salista ei oo kauheesti muita muistikuvia kun Anestesia-lääkärin nukutusneulat ja happi maski, josta kerksin hengitellä vaa kahdesti. 

Seuraavan kerran heräsinkin pää paketissa teholta jossain yhden jälkeen.

Olo oli tosi tokkurainen, mut kyllä ne lääkärit ja hoitajat siellä mulle yrittivät kovasti jo jutella. 

Leikkaava lääkärikin oli siellä ja oli ensimmäisenä kertomassa että leikkaus onnistu täydellisesti ja et hiuksiakaan ei kauheesti tarvinnu leikata. (-jes!)

Vasemman kasvolihasten MAHDOLLISESTA halvautumis riskistä olinkin kuullut jo aikaisempana päivänä. Pikkasen se vasen ylähuuli oli roikkunu, mutta oli korjautunu muutamassa tunnissa ja perjantaihin mennessä sitä ei pystyny edes enää havaitsemaa.

Aluks kun ei tiedetty kuinka kauan halvaus vois kestää.. Viikkoja? kuukausia?

- Neljä päivää mun kohdalla kuulosti tosi hyvältä.

The pain came when I got off from ICU.

But I was doing well, 

I slept almost all of the days, 

Mom, Dad and Grandma came to see me at wednesday.

Believe me! Going to wc has never before been so tiring thing!

Walking was difficult at first too.

Of course when you have been laying down 24 hours and then stand up. 

It was terrible. 
My wirsts are totally in bruises... because of those needles...
But they're recovering too.

Kipua alko sit ilmentyä kun pääsin teholta takaisin osastolle keskiviikko aamuna. 
Silti nukuin melkein koko ajan, mut pakostihan siihen päähän alkoi sattumaan. 
Äiti, iskä ja mummi tulivat käymää iltapäivällä, se piristi huomattavasti. Olin siinä vaiheessa yrittäny jo kävellä pikkasen, mut raskastahan se oli ja huimaustakin oli aika paljon.
Ei oo koskaan aikasemmin vessassa käyntikään tuntunu niin vaikeelta.
Tottakai jos on ollu vaakatasossa viimeset 24h,nii pakosti on kävely vaikeeta.
Kanyylineuloja oli molemmissa ranteissa, josta meni tippa ja sit vasemmassa ranteessa valtimoon oli laitettu verenpaine-mittari. Kun ne otettii pois, jäljelle jäi vaa hiiiirrmuset mustelmat.
Mut ehkä nekin tosta paranee.

Everything started to get better and better and this morning doctor saw that I was well enough to go home.

I was really glad about it, becuse it was first that I would have travel home at monday!!!

No way! 

So I'm really glad I was able to got home today. 

Actually speaking is STILL a little bit hard for me, but I've been practicing.

Expecially those difficult words in finnish language.

It takes much more time for me to say those.

Eli puhuminen edelleen pikkasen vaikeeta. 
Just se et löytäs oikeet sanat. Jotkut sanat on sitten taas liian vaikeita lausuu, nii mulla menee hetki pidempää lausuessa.
Mut senkin asian pitäs korjautuu tässä toipuessa ja puhuessa.

Photo taken this morning. I was so happy about going home.

So 

Recovery begins now!

and already 24 readers?!!! :O

I was surprised!:)

Thank you for reading!

Beautiful day,｡★ﾟand goodbye for a while...

Huh~~ It's +30 outside and I just came back home.

Who would want to spend so nice day inside, so we decided to go Susa&Janita's summercottage. 

We went there with 2 cars 

because 6 people in one car = No?

Hanna and Veera were driving... well they're only ones who have a drivinglicence. 

Hanna's ( ak.a Painava-kaasu-jalka) car doesn't have a air conditioning so it was reeeaaallly nice to go swimming after we got there.

This day was just so perfect and expecially nice because I'll be heading to Kuopio on monday to get surgery.

I will be too sick to spend time with my friends : <

eventhough all of them weren't on the cottage today.

 

 

 

 

 

Susa was our barbeque-master ^_____^ 

and food was sooooo good~~ ! 

Expecially chicken.

Some photos of from last week.

I've been lazy updater again.. :S 

I went to watch Summeri-tv show's filming with Janina on wednesday. 

Well, we didn't be there long... it was boring. 

We went to Janina's to chat and sunbathing. 

I won't be updating in next week but I would still like to take my camera with me... 

So maybe I'll take some sneak-out photos from there... if I'm in better condition in the end of week.

Tuesday will be hard day... well, I'm gonna be pass out almost whole day but the painful part is coming when I wake up. 


I just hope that everything will go well and after surgery I'll be heatly and my hair would start growing again... (my hair hasn't been growing almost at all in a year) 

So,

Keep following my blog because I'll be back! ^^

*wish me luck*