Life isn't always so fair..

 

Fair play?

So not...

I have just few weeks time to enjoy my lovely hair, expecially right side.

Yep, Yesterday's visit in Hospital didn't go just like I planned. 

Surgeon had little bit different thoughts than I did.

So that means that I'm going to surgery in July. 

I know, that's SOON.

Too soon but that's just best for my health.

I belived doctor's words when I saw MRI pictures of my brain.

There was 3cm big, while balloon. 

Just like a white polka dot in brains. 

Then I realized that. "Wow.. Am I really this sick?"

It's vein malformation a.ka Verisuoni epämuodostuma 

It's one of four different Vein tumors.

He said that it's easy to operate off, but recovery takes 6 weeks.

Like always in situations like this.

I felt kind of sad because I had to cancel my schooltrip to Sweden today, but it's only for my best. 

I don't have to cancel schooltrip to Germany and I can still participate to Fall's YO-exams without any problems. 

 I didn't get my own MRI pictures but I remember what it looked.

Almost like this:

 So my summer won't go like a planned but I already made quick and quite random decision.

I'm going to Helsinki next week, because after surgery I won't have any chances to travel anywhere. 

But summer's don't end, next summer is hopefully going to be a lot of better. I'm going to Seoul and moving away from home.

So maybe this operation is best for the future but of course I'm scared. 

But life isn't always so fair to everybody, but atleast if surgery goes well, my brains will be healthy the rest of my life. 

Of course surgery can bring some risks for instance epilepsy  

but I'll take that risk.